Uncontrollable

‘I just can’t do without sleeping with women! As a matter of fact, I thought marriage would put an end to this addiction of mine; unfortunately it never did. I ended up breaking the heart of the woman who showed me so much love instead. Well, don’t be quick to judge me; just wait till you hear my story’…

My name is Benjamin, a young businessman with passion for excellence and productivity. I run a garment industry and I must say that I am successful at what I do. I got married 2 years ago to Bola, a highly intelligent, diligent and serene woman. I guess her quietness and most importantly godly traits got me attracted to her. Apart from all these traits, Bola is also a beauty to behold. Her dark skin, unique dentition, vital statistics will make any man spin in admiration. I thought having her for a wife will put an end to my hunger for ‘anything in skirts,but it sure didn’t work best replica watches.
My uncontrollable appetite for women is traceable to the experience I had during my teenage years with Aunty Gladys. Aunty Gladys is a well-known name in my family in my teenage years. Although we are not related by blood, she was treated like a member of the family. She comes around frequently to visit my Mum and sometimes I was allowed to stay at her place to run errands for and keep her company since she was single. I cherished and admired her greatly and whenever I misbehaved, my Mum would threaten to report me to her and because I didn’t want to fall on her bad side, I would quickly apologise and correct my mistakes.

When I turned 15, Aunty Gladys invited me to her house to come for my birthday gift. The birthday gift left my mouth agape for a while as I stared at a beautiful camera with some set of clothes. I had always wanted a camera and when I got one, I couldn’t help but scream in excitement as I said thank you over and over again. She asked me to come closer and thank her properly and when I did, she gave me a passionate kiss. Every other thing happened so fast and before I left that evening, I was sexually molested by her. She told me how much she loved me and wouldn’t want me to make her unhappy, thus our relationship should be kept a secret. I couldn’t help the nagging feeling that something was wrong, She must have sensed this because she gave me extra money so I could give my friends a birthday treat. I wasn’t happy though but I couldn’t disclose it to anyone. Whenever she needed me, she would just call my unsuspecting mum to send me to her and since I wouldn’t want to disobey my mum, I kept walking into Aunty Gladys trap with my eyes wide open.

Well, another phase began in my life from then and when she eventually relocated outside the country 2 years after, I saw sex as a favourite past time and had become addicted to sex without my parents’ knowledge. I graduated from having one sex partner to having multiple partners even after meeting Bola at the University. Although she complained about my womanising , I gave her my word that I wouldn’t have anything to do with another woman again. God knows I tried to keep my promise, but it didn’t work out. Rather I was able to device a better means of keeping my escapades away from her until she caught me red handed with another woman on our matrimonial bed. Apparently, She travelled on an official trip for a week but came back a day earlier than scheduled. I saw the pain of betrayal written all over her, she was so shaken and heartbroken. I know it will take God for her to forgive and trust me again but I know I have to give up this unbecoming habit of mine if I really want this to happen.

I am not making excuses , my case is another long term effect of Child Sexual Abuse but I know I must be intentional about seeking help if I really want to enjoy my marriage, May God help me replica rolex watches.

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